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so i think im pretty much done with this journal here 4 a bit...cuz i have other things goin on and not much time 2 piddle with this. so yeah.
on that note, my farewell speech -
shit happens.
oh and life's a garden. dig it.
p.s cholie i want my damn shirt!
bye yall
*love
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| guess who's retarded - thats right, me |
[25 Jan 2005|09:58pm] |
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OH MY GOD I CANNOT EAT THIS BAGEL FAST ENOUGH!!! holy crap i was starving!!! i had a slice of pizza 4 lunch then cereal when i got home from school so i was like DYING at practice...twas terrible..but now im ok thanks
its kinda scary 2 b so in love with somebody...but i love it too...mark i do not know WHAT i would have done if u hadnt come down there 2nite..thank u baby i really needed u right then...i love u more than anything
so i was reading tessa's journal right and holy crap i cannot BELIEVE how much i agree with her! history, math and chem i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE...i was sitting in chem 2day and i could not 4 the life of me give a damn. and math?!?!?! PUH-RAISE GAWD!!!(-credited 2 grandma joad) but see not praise god in the good way...more like when sumbody annoys u and ur all like 'jesus h christ!' or mayb yall dont do that..mayb its just me goin 2 hell...anyhow SCHOOL SUCKS!!!
oh and what i dont get is why the seniors r like "aw no we dont wanna go...its gonna b so sad..."...WHY IDIOTS?!?!? bloody hell there is a life outside of chs!! "oh but we wont ever see eachother again wah wah wah" HELLO!!! do u not have a car??? quit ur damn whining! im so jealous of the seniors...why, you might ask? refer to the previous paragraph
not that i dont just LOVE seeing all of u, but no offense, i can do without... :D some of u anyway...and i mean that in the best possible way
i do NOT get 2 see my boyfriend enough at all. i really feel bad 4 this but i hate his job...and i kno its not his fault that he works so much and i kno he would rather b with me but such is life...i just miss him all the time
anyhow im goin 2 bed i think...night yall
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK!!!!!! |
[23 Jan 2005|11:49pm] |
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2day is my hunni's 18th birthday...and i love u SO much baby...i hope u had a good day...i kno its gonna b hard with ur new job and everything and i feel kinda weird not talking 2 u right now but i kno that itll all b worth it in the end...i couldnt ask 4 a better boyfriend than u baby...i love everything about u and i would do nething 4 u in this whole world just 2 make u happy. u mean more 2 me than anything else on the planet and i am so in love with u...i hope u had a wonderful birthday baby and i love u always...MUAH
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| i feel very very alone...like i have nobody 2 talk 2 |
[20 Jan 2005|12:28am] |
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i only want certain ppl 2 read this...actually nvm i dont kno y im bothering with that statement bc i dont think anybody reads this anymore...i dont really care tho...um anyway
yeah i have nobody 2 talk 2...granted it is 12:33...and yeah i just feel really alone...
i feel really distant from my boyfriend 4 like this whole week...like i have talked 2 him but i still feel like i cant reach him...like if were 2 hug him i wouldnt b able 2 hold onto him bc he always has 2 go and i HATE it...i kno he's busy and i knew it was gonna b like this but i need him a lot more than i think...and it really gets 2 me when i dont get 2 see him everyday..and its just gonna get worse with his new job...then i really wont get 2 see him...he swears i will but realistically i kno i wont...and im really happy 4 him and his new job but there prolly wont b netime 4 me cept sundays...i guess ill just hafta deal with it and quit bein so damn needy...but i cant help it...
i never talk 2 my best friend anymore...i dont feel like she's interested in anything i have 2 say...she says all i talk about is him...which of course i would say isnt true and of course she would say yes it is...i think thats all she hears is when i say sumthin bout him...i dont want 2 argue with her tho...i feel really detached from her 2...
i dunno what my problem is...this week started out bad...i didnt get 2 see him on monday..i knew i wouldnt...then tuesday wasnt very nice...i mean it was but it wasnt...didnt get 2 see him yesterday...behind in like 3 of my classes...i have NO money whatsoever...and i prolly wont work until the summer...just cuz my parents wont let me...im sick of school...sick of swimming...
i need a vacation...like a permanent one...school has come 2 feel like a waste of time...yes i kno why im in there...i just hate it...like seriously i am ready 2 move on...2 what im not 100% sure...but still...
i dunno what my problem is...but i kno i cant sleep...and i have nobody 2 talk 2...so here i am...
i have been so moody 4 like the past 2 weeks...granted i had my period last week but i shouldnt b moody now...like ill get irritated bc EVERYBODY picks at me...even if they r joking...it bothers me..then i get even more annoyed 4 bein bothered...
bitch bitch bitch is all i do so im gonna go do sum more homework...hopefully go 2 sleep
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[14 Jan 2005|05:54pm] |
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this week has been pointless. i havent done anything in school...well i have...but not really...i am really just ready 2 b done with school...a perpetual summer would b nice...it might get old after a while yes, but right now it sounds nice.
im irritated bc mark said he was gonna b here like an hour ago and i KNOW its not his fault and now i feel like a jerk bc i stopped typing like mid-sentence (just now) and i was like 'ur taking forever!' (cuz he just called me) and he yelled back at me cuz his truck caught on fire...which is partly why he is taking so long...but everything is ok THANK GOD...and cuz his dad decided 2 wait all day 2 pour the cement until like 2 hours ago...and yeah now i feel like a jerk. MARK I LOVE YOU BABY...and im sorry... :( im a bitch...but we kno this...god i feel really bad now
um 2m at the ass crack of dawn i hafta b at the school 4 the stupid darlington meet...yuck. i hate this meet more than any of the other ones cuz it is so damn long...we prolly wont get back till around 5...yuuuuck....although, the other invitational we go 2 every year (greyhound relays) isnt as bad (as long, yes) but not as bad cuz they races r all relays...which is fun...
mark came 2 my meet tuesday..which was way sweet...thank u hunni...then we went 2 church on wednesday...thats pretty much all i did this week that really counts 4 nething...
anyway...thats bout it i think...hope yall have a nice loong weekend...
*love
p.s. mark i really am sorry and i love u :(
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[09 Jan 2005|12:09am] |
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so mark just left....GOD i missed him so much this week! :( i love bein with him...and i looooooved lunch yesterday darling :D thank u 4 that...and thank u again....hahaha anyway
swim meet yesterday...did pretty good i guess...i cut 4 seconds off my 500 time...so yeah i guess that was good....oh man tho the girl next 2 me...HOLY CRAP! she was so fast! i was like on 9 and i looked over and she was already on 13! i was like dude! and after i was like hey u did a really good job and she was like oh yeah this is my first time ever swimming at a high school meet....so THATS WHY...i mean i had a pretty good idea she was a year round swimmer tho...u dont get that good from swimming during the high school season and thats it...so yeah i didnt feel bad by being beat by her...cuz HELLO...if u swim year round, well then yeah...
so then 2day at practice...holy crap it was hard as hell...i had my own lane so i did like a ton of distance...like one of our usual practices...hard practices is around...3500 - 4000 yds...and im like almost positive i did about 5000...
my grades r better...not failing anything anymore! lol im a sped...no my grades would b so much better if i tried (i.e. gave a damn most of the time...)but yeah i dont...so they rnt...
anyway i need 2 go 2 sleep cuz i have church in the morning with my hubby then im spending the day with him... :D
night yall
*love
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| my days feel incomplete if i dont get 2 see u |
[05 Jan 2005|06:38pm] |
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so yeah i was really upset the other night...im ok now but the other night was bad...cuz after i got done bein all pissed off mark said sumthin that made me cry bc it was the sweetest thing anybody has ever said 2 me in my whole life and i really mean that - i am so in love with him... i really wanted 2 c u 2nite hunni but its ok, i kno its not ur fault...well get 2 hang out sum other time...i miss u
um i dont really have a lot 2 talk bout at the moment...
i feel like crying...
ill b ok tho...talk 2 yall later
*love
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FINE DONT LET ME HELP MYSELF U ASSHOLES!!! YEAH I SCREWED UP OK....FUCKING THREE MONTHS AGO!!!!! LET IT GO!!! I KNO ITS NOT MY CAR!!! WHAT DO U THINK?!?!!? AND HELLO ITS NOT LIKE U BOUGHT ME THE CAR, EVEN THO U SEEM 2 THINK U DID - HELLO I WAS FUCKING PAYING FOR IT!!! U LET ME GET IT!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE U!!!!! NOTHING I DO WILL MAKE U FUCKING HAPPY BC UR SO CONSUMED WITH ME SCREWING UP AND U WONT FUCKING LET IT GO!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!! I CANNOT WAIT 2 LEAVE!!!
I HATE U!!!!
OMFG im SO pissed off!!!! that was directed at my parents btw. if any of u want 2 try 2 see it from their point of view, or try 2 tell me im being childish, fuck u bc i have done nothing but walk on glass and bend over backwards for these fuckheads for the past 3 months and i havent said a damn thing about it, so thanks but no thanks. yeah maybe i did deserve it, but this is long enough. oh AND im not a bad kid. and my grades are BETTER than they were. i clean the house EVERY weekend. i do all this other shit every day, like clean the kitchen and vacuum and all this other stupid shit.
there is other stuff but i am 2 fucking pissed off at the moment 2 say.
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| one of my favorite things : places that serve breakfast ALL the time :D |
[02 Jan 2005|09:30pm] |
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my favoritest thing is mark tho
so i spent the ENTIRE day with my darling...only about 12 hours...he was sposed 2 leave around 7:30 (cuz i was with him all day) and he ended up leavin just now (lol 2 hours later) and i swear during that whole time he was in the process of leaving...it took us like 45 min 2 get upstairs...then we ate and sat and talked 2 dad for a lil bit...put coolant in mamas car...then...we sat in his car...talking....*shifty eyes*....teehee...anyway...um...oh btw- YES SIR, YOU ARE WELCOME. ;D (<<thats a winky face)
oh yeah so my gramma had gall stones...they figured this out 2day and she was also operaated on 2day...and shes in the ICU now but she will b fine they say...
um i would go over my day with my honey bear BUT that would prolly bore/disgust yall...lol SO IM NOT GONNA...lol but just kno, that it was wonderful... :D
i obviously feel better 2day tho...just had 2 much time 2 sit at home and think...which es no bueno. im a whole lot better 2day tho...
i will see yall all on tuesday...
*love!!!
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[01 Jan 2005|07:09pm] |
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i feel kinda crappy today...woke up 2 my mum screaming at my dad...i could hear her all the way upstairs with my door shut...so yeah i was like...wonderful. so i go downstairs...i was gonna eat sumthin then i forgot...lol...so i didnt eat...
then i cleaned the house...what else is new...u guys can start calling me cindy...as in cinderella...i dont hafta wait on my prince charming tho...seein as how i already got him...
and yeah cuz of my parents i was in a pissed off mood i like flipped out when mark didnt call me before he went 2 work (and no, i dont usually do that cuz i usually just figure he got busy or sumthin...) and so im like omg goin thru all this crap in my head that coulda happened 2 him (cuz he was workin on the roof again) and im like oh jesus he might have fell off the roof and broke his neck...then i flipped out even more cuz he wasnt answering his cell fone cuz he forgot it cuz his dad was rushing him...and yeah it was crap. but everything is fine of course...and yeah im sorry hunni...i love u...and dont b stupid... i have my days...
my gramma is back in the hopsical...shes been sick and so mama took her 2 the hopsical this mornin and they r still down there...so theyve been there 4 what...about 9 hours? yeah...and they decided they r gonna keep gramma over night so they r waiting on a room now..
do u ever get a weird feeling?...like how when u feel like ur waiting 4 the bottom 2 drop out? i always do...cuz it always does...and i wish i wouldnt b like this...but my whole life its been like this...like im happy now and im just waiting 4 it 2 end...how sad is that? i dont kno whats the matter with me but i dont think its my fault bc every time i can ever remember bein happy, sumthin always happened that messed it up...somebody died...or left...i dunno... :/
im kinda worried bout goin back 2 school cuz of the finals i hafta take..it was nice 2 lay out...besides bein sick out of my mind...i dont kno if i remember anything...and i have asked a few ppl bout the reviews 4 certain finals and they r no help at all...so i dunno what ima do...fail prolly...i prolly wont care once i get back in that disguised prison they call a school...
i totally forgot bout the whole resolution thing...i think mine will prolly b 2 lose weight again...even tho its cliche...i need 2...cuz im fat and all...i can just hear mark saying "shut up b4 i smack u in the back of the head"...yeah yeah
back 2 reading....
*love
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| HAPPAY NEW YEAH! |
[01 Jan 2005|12:37am] |
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god there is like this huge zit on my forehead and its one of those kinds that r like not ready 2 b popped...yall kno what im talkin bout...liz and mark were both like 'yeah ow'...but anywho
so fo new years i went out..got my man sum starbizzle's while he was at work bc im a sweetheart like that and cuz he was up like all damn day putting shingles on the roof of nanna's house THEN he had 2 go 2 work THEN he came over here 4 new years...which was nice cuz i got 2 kiss him and all...yeah and b4 he got here i was at lizs chillin and lookin at her parents old annuals...which was really funny...cuz her parents were like AWESOME looking...lol then she came over here...didnt stay till 12 so me and mark took her home then came back here...
so yeah yesterday i like puked my damn guts up..lol then my abs hurt 2day and i could not 4 the life of me figure out why they hurt and then mark was like 'yeah cuz all u did yesterday was throw up...' and i was like haha oh...yeah. and it was the kind of throw up that like makes u sweaty and makes ur eyes look like ur crying and ur nose is running and it feels like there r little men with ropes attached 2 ur stomach and just yanking them in so u throw up harder....yeah lol hows that 4 a description...
ha and i threw up at blockbuster...outside naturally...but yeah i felt SO much better after that...lol
uummmm crap i have so much left 2 read 4 school...im starting 2 give a crap again...grr...
our neighbors r idiots. BUT they have really good fireworks.
i need 2 brush my teeth...
mark thank u 4 last night. i love ur guts baby.... :D
yeah not much left 2 say at the moment...gotta go clean up the damn kitchen again...story of my life is that fucking kitchen........BLAST!!! *shakes fist*
hope yall had a great new year's eve...
*love
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| "shes got me sayin sugar pie, hunni, darlin, and dear..." |
[28 Dec 2004|08:56pm] |
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aint that the truth... :D
sup my ppls...haha
u kno it is a good thing there rnt cops sitting around in my neighborhood bc i woulda been pulled over a looooong time ago....
so i went grocery shopping today...that was exciting bc i LOVE grocery shopping 4 sum reason...then i made a HUGE fruit salad and then a HUGE regular salad and then 2 pizzas...so yeah i was feeling a bit domestic...which is kind of a switch 4 me but i enjoy it...
had bahama breeze last night with my man...so good yall hafta have their margherita pizza and their lemon breeze (its a drink) YUMMY...our waiter was "too nice" (said mark) but i thought he was funny...annoying voice...funny tho...k mayb a lil too nice...lol
i love my cuddle monkey :D....lol yeah yall can go throw up lol...
hanny thank u 4 saying that it really means a lot 2 me...i love u hun
woot woot liz is finally moving! i mean, not that i want her 2 move...GOD! shes only moving 2 brick park! shes not goin anywhere yall! but they have been waiting 4 a while 2 sell their house and everything finally worked out so im planning a moving party! WOO i love parties! BRING YOUR TRUCKS!...lol
2day is my mama and daddy's 20 year anniversary...even tho they dont read this (thank god) happy anniversary 2 them...it would b nice 2 b able 2 say that...i hope all of yall can one day, if thats what u want...
ew i watched this movie, a documentary that yall might have heard of called Supersize Me, and i swear i never want 2 eat fast food ever again. if u havent heard of it, u should rent it...its about this guy that eats only mcdonalds 4 30 days, and yeah u may b saying well yeah thats gonna b bad 4 u...U HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD IT IS FOR YOU!!! eating that had the same effect on his liver as being an alcoholic for 30 days...its pretty much pickled his liver...ITS SO BAD FOR YOU! so yeah yall should def watch it...its really interesting besides all that crap...
also, happy birthday to betty...i love u dearest
anyhow, i think thats all 4 now..b4 i think of more 2 run out the mouth with...
*love
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| oh the weather outside is frightful...ly cold! |
[25 Dec 2004|05:24pm] |
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wa-elll, merry christmas guys...
my christmas has been uneventful, bc i have slept like all day, and i have no idea why, but i slept from like 12 or 1 till like 5....and i dunno why...
however, my christmas EVE was ever so wonderful...i spent it with my hunni and thats all yall need 2 kno...hey maybe thats why i slept all 2day...hrm.. :D
i really didnt get much...cuz i really didnt ask for much...the best thing i got is from mark, and i got a starbucks card and $300 from my dad...then sum other stuff...lol
other than that i dont have much 2 say...i keep tryin 2 read grapes of wrath and i swear its not boring, but it puts me 2 sleep! i was reading b4 i took my 5 hour nap today..i was awakened by a few of my friends calling, but of course i dont mind....bc i love you ALL!
sooo yes...thats really it...im at a loss 4 words...(wow abraham lincoln? yeah yeah i kno..) ...yeah yall wouldnt get that so dont worry bout it...but if u did it would b funny....but inside jokes r great... :D
i really do hope yall have a merry christmas and you got everything you wanted...
*love yall
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[22 Dec 2004|02:30pm] |
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im such a cheeseball....we kno this tho...but yall cant tell me that the spice girls r not great...i still love them
mark and i r back together....he makes me so happy..but yall kno this....i love him so much
im really ok with my life now...a lot of crap has happened but everyone has been telling me that stuff happens for a reason, and i hafta say, yall were right.
im really excited bout christmas (lol did u get that in my last entry?)...more specifically christmas eve bc...well wouldnt u like 2 kno...:D
im really broke....ill wash cars for money! lol but the stuff i spent my money on was completely worth it..bc it wasnt for me...so yeah
my dearest joe had his wisdom teeth out this morning...i would sympathize except when i had mine out it was great...they gave my hydrocodone and i felt GREAT so yeah joe, u can try 2 play it off like ur miserable, but if i could have my wisdom teeth out again, i would...and my doctor was HOTT....lol i love u hun
practice at 5....luckily its later so ill go...if it was this morning there would have been no way in hell i woulda gone...but yeah since its later its all gravy baby
man i love his guts...
hope yall r havin happy holidays
*love
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| !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[19 Dec 2004|09:32pm] |
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i am really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY excited!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
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[17 Dec 2004|06:04pm] |
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so for the past *looks at watch* 4 days, ive had the flu. dont kno if yall knew this, but yes, i did have it. never had it b4...now of course...i mean im better now...but oh man the flu SUCKS! and then i kinda passed it on to sum other unfortunate soul by way of...umm...haha "necking"(so say-ith my faja) lol but I FELT BETTER!!! but...uh...pssh we dont do that....*shifty eyes*....HE BROUGHT ME LUNCH YALL! AND THEN HE MASSAGED MY SHOULDERS! GOD! WHAT WOULD YOU DO?!?!? it was so sweet...
uh
anyway
i miss yall...missed the finals too!! HA! but yeah i hafta take em when i get back...dont really care at the moment...
i cleaned like a madwoman today..bc i wasnt allowed to go out..my dad said sumthin bout 'missing school' and 'bein sick for the past week' ....whatever thats about..pssh...but oh my liz u would b so proud of me...i even washed my sheets AND vacuumed! i mean, um...i do that all the time...EW to anybody that doesnt!
i just saw justin timberlake in a huge gingerbread costume doing the running man and i think i might have wet my pants it was so funny...and hes kinda hott....yum...
eggnog is NAS-TAY
im somebody's favorite person...they told me so...i love u darling :D
woot christmas!! oh man im excited...dunno why...cuz im not really getting nething bc me and max r goin shopping after with a bunch of money that we r gonna get on christmas morning...woot shopping!!! i LOVE shopping...but not with max...liz u can go with me...lol we've been thru this b4....so u should just go ahead and go....woo and we're goin shopping sunday!!! YAAAY!!!
i like getting gifts and all but i love it so much more 2 give sumbody a gift and watch their face when they open it (bc i give awesome gifts)...(when i have the money)...but *sigh* its nice...
this song is so fun 2 dance 2! yall should try it...
arighty well mama went 2 the office so i hafta go make dinna fo de boys...
love yall!
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i might actually hafta go 2 the doctor. mayb thatll make YOU happy now huh? but yeah i think im getting sick...i havent been sick in a long time...not like really sick anyway...
um my body feels like crap but i feel pretty good. my husband and i finally got stuff sorted out for a change...its crazy to love sumbody that much...but i just cant help myself...its like the same thing he tells me...its just sumthin he does to me...and yall can take that in whatever way u want bc either of them would prolly b correct :D
im sorta worried sumthin else is gonna happen between us but i dont kno what could happen that could b worse than the stuff thats already happened...and i love him no matter what he does and he knos this...i just hope its enough..and i dont want to worry bout us...ive kinda just stepped back and let it b and i think its been good...
....i hope we get 2 spend some of the vacation together...we'll think of sumthin...
doesnt seem like there is too much goin on...yall all kno we have finals...at the moment i just dont give a damn bc im sick and i dont feel like bein stressed out...but im sure thatll change once i feel a lil better...GAH
life actually feels ok for a change...sure a bunch of stuff sucks but a bunch of stuff doesnt either...
this past weekend i missed like EVERYBODY...liz, cholie, cora, hanny, tiesha, tommy, kirk, michael, jason, other jason, joe, curtis, andrew, mark (specially u)...god just everybody...i never see yall nemore...but thats what getting into trouble will do 4 u!
i really dont think i have any sense of how tall trees actually are bc me and max went lookin 4 our christmas tree yesterday and i picked out these big ones and max was like no those r 2 big and i was like NO they arnt! so then we picked out this what-i-thought-was-a-smaller tree and it turns out when we got it into the house AFTER cutting it down more, its still like 9 feet tall....and thats kinda big...lol so yeah what can i say? i cant believe that lil fucker was right tho...and i mean that in the best possible way...lol
anyway i need 2 go 2 sleep...night yall
*love
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[09 Dec 2004|06:36pm] |
Shakespeare: Sonnets. Everyone has heard of you,
and almost everybody can find something
touching in you. You are calm and control
yourself, even though your wisdom and your
messages are no lesser than those of others.
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[08 Dec 2004|12:30pm] |
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i cant eat anything...cant focus on school...not even swimming...i cant even sleep. now that its sunk it in it hurts so much more than anything has ever hurt me b4. i dont kno what ive done 2 deserve this continuous treatment...i feel like im being punished for sumthin i didnt do...prolly after this pain subsides i wont feel anything...i hope not. i dont see any point in doing anything. im just so disgusted i cant do anything. its ridiculous i kno, but if had any control over it i would NOT be feeling this way right now...the way ive felt all day. i cant cry anymore bc ive done enough of that. i really dont understand why im being treated like this. and then u couldnt even say nething bout what i said. i just keep thinking the same thing over and over...what u did. and its makes me so sick i want 2 throw up. i cant even throw up anymore bc there isnt nething left. i just dont understand why. i mean i guess i do but i cant believe u did. i havent said anything all day. i dont trust u. i didnt b4 but definitely not now. ive never felt as low as i do now.
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